Insomnia vs Chronic Fatigue

For many years now I’ve been battling between the two. My chronic pain hasn’t been helping either, it either helps with not sleeping, or just continuously sleeping for long periods of time.

Sleeping at 30 min-1 hr intervals, waking up at specific times throughout the night and day… not knowing how much time has past… sometimes I feel like a zombie.

I am part vampire and part zombie. If you know me, you get the joke, but also know it’s not a joke.

I have 4cm of dead in my hip aka zombie and I’m anemic, vitamin D deficient aka vampire. I’m a night owl… but I also wake up at 4:30am.

I keep on living even though I’m in pain, because who has time for sleep?

I don’t know what I’m typing anymore.

Watch “My Brilliant Life”, it was amazing… appreciate every second of your life and everyone loving around you.

Goodnight friends.

How?

How do you even begin to describe when you’re just having a “bad time”?

Today I had to explain to a guy who has “interest” in me that… uh well, I am who I am. From life, from experience… from everything. I don’t purposely ignore anyone, I shut off everyone in my life when I’m having “issues”, stress, anxiety.

Ah, life. How do I even begin? How does anyone?

I have so much going on right now…. But it was nice that talking to him made me feel at ease… like he actually really cared about me.

If he does or doesn’t, I thank him for making me smile today. Because, sometimes it’s all it takes, just a few words that make you feel somewhat significant in the world.

Side note: still one of my goals in life is to be a zombie extra in a movie/tv show so plz hook me up 🥳