Breaking down.. and picking myself back up

I had a rough week. I admit it. Rough, both mentally and physically and I’m sure they play a part in each.

Wednesday morning, I woke up around 5am as I have been lately, and I just lay there… my whole chest and up my throat felt stuffed with cotton balls and it was so hard to breath. I felt like I was having a panic attack for no reason… perhaps all the nightmares I’ve been having lately? …So I lay there for hours, until 2pm when I tried to get up for family therapy. I could barely move but still walked out to my dining room table to talk with her. What was going to be a few minutes, turned into the whole hour session… definitely a lot more at ease.

This has been happening a lot lately, lying there, can’t breath, can’t move, can’t sleep, can’t get up. I lie there thinking happy thoughts and singing songs in my head. Sometimes if I find the strength I play some on my iPhone. It helps, slower than a pill would, but mentally healthier in my opinion.

Back to the nightmares. I’ve been having nightmares, scary ones… and not just ghosts are creepy crawly creatures, but real life situations. Maybe I do watch too much true crime, horror movies and k-dramas, they all get combined into a very realistic type of scary in my dreams.

The other day I was telling my PT about a horror movie thriller I watched the night before… [She seems to enjoy me re-telling her stories of movies and true crime hehe, we have that in common because she shares a lot with me too]. And after, she asked me…

“Do you get nightmares after watching these movies?”

“Nope!”

To be honest, I don’t. But in my weird twisted mind, as soon as I close my eyes, every weird real life, things I’ve seen and watched get combined into my own new movie.

I should start writing more dreams down… since my neuropathy meds, sometimes I can’t remember my dreams as vividly as I used to… but lemme tell you, I’ve written down some crazy, long twisted plot turning dreams. Intense.

Sunday Funday.

Update on the Health…. I need help!!!!

People who have been following me on all my other social medias have known that my health has recently gotten a little dip.  I sort of think it was stemming from living in my apt in Taiwan the last trip, because my first symptoms of edema [swollen feet and ankles and sometimes legs] started after it, when I went to Florida [DISNEY!!!!]

I was fine back at home in Boston minus some foot pains occasionally or if I ate things that were too salty….

Coming to Taiwan, most of the trip my legs/feet were fine until I got to Hong Kong.  But even  when I arrived to Taiwan, some swelling would come but I’d drink liquids, flush it out and elevate my legs to help it.

In Japan, I walked a lot and it was actually quite ok.  It wasn’t until I came back to Taiwan and started getting my surgeries [small things, ear, belly button, leg] and taking antibiotics that my health really deteriorated.  And then I found out that the sides of my bed [It’s up against the wall] underneath had NOT been cleaned out in forever and it was thick black crusted mold, dust, cockroaches, crap, etc. — waa Taiwan, the land of humidity and dirty air…. and fucking cockroaches dying under my bed.

I actually went to the hospital and ER a few times and contemplating going again tonight or tmw morning to ER to get a second opinion.  My blood circulation pills and another weird pill helped a little but I still had so much pain.

SO, yesterday I got a new mattress and fully cleaned out the grossness surrounding my bed which I’ve sucked in for months and months… gag… and hopefully that’ll help.  I also found lists of things to avoid eating when puffy… basically meats [esp beef waa – I was craving it], dairy, fats, nuts, seeds, shellfish, anything oily buttery…. cold raw fruits and veg… waaaa what do I eat?!?!

But at least they have a nice list of things I can eat… adzuki bean congee, soybeans, barley, pumpkin, chicken, barley, parsley, clams, pineapple, grapes, soybeans, scallions, vinegar, seaweeds, watermelon, zucchinni, etc… I’ll post pics of the screen captions I got.

Does anyone have experience with this?  I’m in so much pain.  Any help would be a big help!!! Thanks!!!!

I’ve been crying a lot from the frustration and pain.

Excess Flesh: a good look at the truth of eating disorders thru a crazy awesome movie

The first time I watched this movie I was just in for the horror and the gore… I had no idea it would hit me this much.  Being a recovered anorexic/bulimic I ended up being obsessed with this movie and looking up as many reviews as possible.  But yet, no one had the same perspective that I had on this movie… and no one interpreted it the same way I did.

Jennifer, a skinny sexy model who can eat whatever she wants and not gain weight, is best friends with Jill, a normal sized chick who ends who binging and purging or starving for days… they are roommates and it’s a messed up relationship.

Jennifer is extroverted and sleeps around a lot while Jill is introverted and prefers to stay at home all day, but is an extra agent cook.  While Jennifer gorges on junk food, Jill starves herself all day until the middle of the night – which leads to regret, chewing and spitting, or purging. 

The friendship is very vioiatle and it focuses on people chewing and eating a lot – which, is actually quite disgusting. 

To me, unaccording to other critics and receivers… I believe that Jill and Jennifer are the same person. Jennifer is Jill’s inner “hungry” girl… while Jill is Jennifer’s inner “fat” girl (although they definitely did not chose an overweight actress to play the part)

There are lots of weird forced food and eating moments during the movie. Jill even locked Jennifer up and she escapes but the cops don’t even act like they are two people, just one… therefore why I think they ARE one person.

In the end, after she’s supposedly “dead”, Jennifer shows up to a casting call and they even say something of the likes of “oh it’s her again”… which makes me even more sure that that Jennifer and Jill are the same person.

I duno. Thoughts?

Can you believe it’s February? 2017?

I have so many posts, “almost finished” on here…. I promise to post my New Years Eve dinner post tonight, but life has just been flying past me.

Swoooooshhhhhh….

I feel like this website needs a makeover, do-over, something.  It’s become more of a lifestyle blog than a food blog, although food still is my main love :]  But hey, the older you get, the more life gets in your way.  You grow, evolve… changes.

I’m trying this “healthy” approach to my snacking and randomly missing meals with RXBars and ProteinWorld smoothies… but hell, sometimes I just want my bag of chips to munch on.  My body doesn’t do too well with salty food, so I constantly crave it.  Ahhh, the irony.

2017 has been interesting. I was back in the States before Xmas 2016 but so much drama and blah blah blah… oh and BLAH!… Thankfully I’ve had great people to be there with me and for me [as me for them] during the times.  Love is in the air.  I love you my friends/family.

Anyways just wanna put it out there, I shall be blogging more, cooking more [hopefully]  and I hope I haven’t lost a ton of you….  especially since I’ve been back and forth from Asia and America so much – still figuring out where I wanna end up living at for a “time” or just stick with traveling everywhere :] OK… time to finish my plan for tomorrow’s menu and my NYE Dinner blog post that’s long overdue.

xo always,

I’m back bitches!!!!!!!!

Tiffie

PS. Patriots are DA FUGGING CHAMPIONS……AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This year’s superbowl was unforgettable and epic. Tom Brady for life <3 You know what else was on fire? The wings I made for Superbowl Sunday. Scotch bonnet, garlic, shallots, pineapple, etc…. FIRE <3 Fire like Brady was!!!!! Holla!

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byebye past, hello future

This is the beginning of a whole new life for me.  A new chapter with one of the best people I know in my life.  I’m not running away from my past but I have moved on, beyond and I’m only looking forward, hand in hand with my love.

A few things I’m considering, now that this has gone from health blog, foodie blog, for awhile it got all personal and “shtuff” and now into a lifestyle blog.  Should I get rid of all my old posts?  Or just leave them on to see how I’ve grown?  Tons of old posts are still being read, even commented on, so I feel like I’m taking away from hiding them….

But this is a new start for me.

After over 24 hours in airports, but mostly an airplane… I am on the other side of the world, for who knows how long.  On the plane I watched Tiny Times (finally!!!), Room and Trainwreck.  Which strangely, I connected to all three.

Tiny Times.  The Asian, younger version of Sex and the City.  College students who great up together and their stories.  Each girl different from the other (all gorgeous of course and all in different situations in their lives – of course – but even the most glamorous has difficulties.)  Who hasn’t gone through a time admiring successful beautiful people.  The super athletic one.  The super rich one.  The gorgeous one.  The artistic one.  The smartest one.  Or wanted “Mr. Perfect” etc. etc.  This movie reminds us that we are still, in fact, all the same.  All the same insecurities, pains, emotions, feelings – and most of us, truly do in fact have a soul.

Room.  A girl was raped and abducted for over 5 years and had a child and was living in one room for that long.  Her son, his whole life, was based on a tv, books “surprise Sundays” and the room.  It was interesting how the girl got frustrated at her own son being scared of the world she always knew of and dreamed of going back into – after they got saved.  It also reminded me of how materialistic the world has become, how reliant we are with technology and not appreciating the beauty we have all around us, waiting to happen, things that have happened.  Just even a window to look outside.

Trainwreck.  I’ll just let the name speak for itself.  Thankfully I was never even close to how awful of a place she was in.  But let’s just got back to Tiny Times’ conclusion.  Everyone has gone through shit.

And then I think of where I am now.

I am happy.

I AM HAPPY.

Of course, nothing will ever be perfect… but I am HAPPY.

So yup. First 24 hours has been a lot of sleep (we both passed out around 9ish last night)  And it’s currently 6 in the morning.  More later on.  Feel free to check out my tweets and instagram for quicker updates.

xoxo, Tiffie

Healthy Chinese Herbal Eats at 神農

After lunch, my little get-away, a mid-day nap and getting my hair did…. me and my mom and aunts headed off to another one of my favorite restaurants in Taichung, 神農.

Some beautiful fluffy flowers….

Some complimentary small dishes while we wait for our foods…. with some delicious medicinal tea.

Everything on the menu is medicinal and have “curing” things about them and are cooked and paired correctly to help make us healthier.

甘蔗苗 [Sugar Cane “Seedlings” directly translated] which – if I’m correct, and feel free to correct me if I’m wrong – is the tips of the Sugar Cane plants.  They are not “sweet” like the normal sugar cane or fibrous – they remind me of bamboo shoots, super tender and delicious.

Mixed Asian Mushrooms….  yes, literally those puffs that look like sponges are mushrooms. NOM!  And if you know me, I ADORE mushrooms.

Those puffs are Bear’s Head Mushroom aka Hericium.

 “In China and Japan, species of Hericium are highly valued for their medicinal properties;[11] in particular, H. erinaceus is used intraditional Chinese medicine.[12] In recent decades there has been considerable research interest in the bioactive properties of this species, and several compounds isolated from H. erinaceus have biological activities, including cytotoxic effects on cancer cells, stimulatory effects on nerve growth factor synthesis,[13] antimicrobial and nematicidal activity, and antitumor activity.[14][15]

Hericium species can be purchased in dried form for use in cooking and as medicine.”

Wikipedia

Boiled Shrimp topped with some 木耳 [Wood Ear, a fungus] and 红枣 [Red Dates].

Boiled Dumplings 水餃 – they’re so good,with 薺菜 [Shepherd’s Purse] and pork.  Simple and delicious – just how I like my everything haha.  Yep, even the dumplings are super healthy for you.

Medicinal use for 薺菜 [Shepherd’s Purse]:

“When dried and infused, it yields a tea which is still considered by herbalists one of the best specifics for stopping haemorrhages of all kinds – of the stomach, the lungs, or the uterus, and more especially bleeding from the kidneys.

Its haemostyptic properties have long been known and are said to equal those of ergot and hydrastis. During the Great War, when these were no longer obtainable in German commerce, a liquid extract of Capsella bursapastoris was used as a substitute, the liquidextract being made by exhausting the drug with boiling water. Bomelon found the herb of prompt use to arrest bleedings and flooding, when given in the form of a fluid extract, in doses of 1 to 2 spoonfuls.

Culpepper says it helps bleeding from wounds – inward or outward – and: ‘if bound to the wrists, or the soles of the feet, it helps the jaundice. The herb made into poultices, helps inflammation and St. Anthony’s fire. The juice dropped into ears, heals the pains, noise and matterings thereof. A good ointment may be made of it for all wounds, especially wounds in the head.’

It has been used in English domestic practice from early times as an astringent in diarrhoea; it was much used in decoction with milk to check active purgings in calves.

It has been employed in fresh decoction in haematuria, haemorrhoids, chronic diarrhcea and dysentery, and locally as a vulnerary in nose-bleeding, which is checked by inserting the juice on cotton-wool. It is also used as an application in rheumatic affections, and has been found curative in various uterine haemorrhages, especially those with which uterine cramp and colic are associated, and also in various passive haemorrhages from mucous surfaces.

It is a remedy of the first importance in catarrhal conditions of the bladder and ureters, also in ulcerated conditions and abscess of the bladder. It increases the flow of urine. Its use is specially indicated when there is white mucous matter voided with the urine; relief in these cases following at once.”

Read more about it here.

Delicious Noodles tossed lightly in a 苦茶油 aka Tea Tree Oil, which translated directly into English is Bitter Tea Oil.

Delicious Sweet Potato/Yam Greens 甘薯瓣 with some Goji 枸杞 berries.

Black Chicken [烏骨雞] Herbal Soup

冬蟲夏草烏骨雞

Straight from the words of their website: “如同黃金般珍貴的冬蟲夏草隔水加熱後以水蒸氣慢慢炊熟,加入自釀超過一年的何首烏酒與無抗生素污染的烏骨雞。甘香美味的高湯徹底顛覆你對傳統藥膳苦澀的認知喔!”

The feets are my favorite!!!!! YUMMMMM

Shrimpy shrimp.  Got to eat it the right way.  Rip off the head, suck the innards of it and then eat the rest after you peel off the shell.

A yummy light dessert. MMMMM Black Sugar jelly/custard 黑糖凍.

Fattest Country in the World ISNT the USA

As of July 2013

Apparently the US is no longer the fattest country in the world….. it’s Mexico.  70% of Mexicans are obsese. Absolutely terrifying.

Mexico has surpassed the United States as the world’s fattest nation, with 32.8% of its population now classed as obese.

This worrying figure is higher than the percentage of obese US citizens, who weigh in at 32%.

The information comes from a report by the United Nations charting obesity rates across the world.

It reveals that 70% of Mexicans are overweight and childhood obesity figures have tripled in the last decade. – Source

and I was actually surprised that the UK wasn’t in the top 5.  I have been so obsessed with “Supersize vs Superskinny” and “Secret Eaters” Shows and many more that I really thought the UK was one of the top one. I was super surprised with NZ and Aussie. AND wtf is Finland food???…… OK I’m gonna put my ideas in PINK after each one.

#1 – Mexico: They may be the world’s fattest country with a 32.8% obesity rate, but they may also have the world’s best food. (Source: United Nations)

Fried. Tortillas. Corn. Meats. Cheese. Fat. Delicious. I get it.  What I DON’T get is that I feel like Mexican food CAN be healthy. Guacamole. Fresh salsas…. WTF. Too much fried food, sour cream and margaritas I guess?!… FUCK THAT. I love margaritas. But I guess it’s like the US…. fresh food costs more than convenience food. That and too much cheese.

#2 – United States: We may not be the world’s fattest country anymore, but we may still be the best at being fat. We did turn eating food into a competition, after all. Obesity rate: 31.8%. (Source: United Nations)

Not that hard to realize. Fruit costs more than the 1$ menu at Mcdonalds… which doens’t mean I don’t like my occasional fries and nuggets but you know what I mean. It’s sad. And this makes me sad. Bad food is cheaper than healthy food.

#3 – New Zealand: The United Nations says New Zealand has an obesity rate of 26.5%. That said, it’s really hard to find a picture of anyone in New Zealand eating or looking unhealthy… (Source: United Nations)

So I had to google this.  And this is what I found….  still need a good reason…. I had a good gf who went to school in NZ and she is sexy as hell.

Yeah I have fucking hot gfs… BUT hey it might be our asian genes…. but still.. blaming obsesity on genes or junk food is just LAME.

#4 – Chile: Some of the best seafood and wine around comes from Chile, so we get it. Obesity rate: 25.1%.(Source: United Nations)

 Actually not sure about this. I dated a Chilean guy who said that they weren’t into “bigger” people and it being a South American place I’d figure it wouldn’t be a problem.

#5 – Australia: When most people think of Australia, tanned beach bodies dotting the country’s coastlines come to mind, so it comes as a bit of a shocker that the nation cracks the Top 5 in world’s fattest, with an obesity rate of 24.6%. (Source: United Nations)

NO IDEA.

#6 – Canada: Canada’s 24.2% obesity rate gives North America its third country in the Top 10 in obesity.(Source: United Nations)

One word: Poutine.

#7 – United Kingdom: America’s fat gene may have been passed down from our colonial parents who have a 23% obesity rate. (Source: United Nations)

Srsly, how are they not right after or before US? All they do is eat takeout and curry and fried crap and fry ups and SHIT SHIT SHIT. Sorry.

#8 – Ireland: Slainte! Obesity rate: 23%. (Source: United Nations)

Meat and Potatoes…. and Guinness?!

#9 – Luxembourg: If you were sandwiched between the world class chefs in France, Belgium and Germany, you might be a little pudgy, too. Obesity rate: 22.1%. (Source: United Nations)

Don’t Germans just drink DAS BOOT and eat like brats?…. and Pretzels… and what saukraut? I guess that’s not healthy but I duno I feel like Euros are either starving or eating shitty greasy fatty fried food,

#10. Finland Traditional Finnish food includes fresh fish, cabbage and wild game – all relatively healthy eats. What gives? Obesity rate: 20.2%. (Source: United Nations)

HAHAHAH so wrong but I saw this forum thread about “Why are Finnish women so fat” so now I read ——— OK now all I read about on google is why are Finnish people so ugly… UHHHHHH……. so this remains another MYSTERY!!!!

Sources:
Health Zone
Huffington Post

IVs & Buddha’s Hands…

Friday
I had a nice big bowl of barley w/ Logans & 綠豆 

I also added a tbs of flaxseed

I loved how thick and nutty it made it.

My first IV session was at 1pm. And it lasted til about 330pm. @_@ Too crazy.

I have to bruised arms now, but it was good, I ended up reading half of twilight.

My drip and my view.

I came home, STARVED, and scarfed down a guava while watching Ugly Betty episodes.

Dinner was amazing and super iron heavy!!!

Spicy Beef Noodle Soup (牛肉麵)!!! I’ve seriously never had any better than what my mom makes… when I lived outside of home I had TUBS and TUBS of this frozen to make whenever I wanted some….

Delicious oxtail, nutritious and filling!!! See, I told you.. iron-heavy… BEEF & SPINACH!!! I don’t remember the last time I had beef…

I had a ton of seamed clams too…

And a bowl of clams in clam soup :]

That night I went to B&N, and made a quick stop at Trader Joe’s for Gummy Tummies Penguins & Pumpkin Butter…

I came out with these:

Mango Black Tea, 5 bags of Gummy Tummies, Dried Unsulfured Apricots, Regular Dried Apricots, Dried Mangos, Dried Dragonfruit, Organic Pops & PUMPKIN BUTTER!!!

B&N yielded:


Happiest about: Influence & KUNG FU PANDA!!!

Dried Dragonfruit…. Fresh Dragonfruit…

It was really good… the seeds felt like popping chia or sesame seeds…

And then I had a HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE dried fruits binge fest…

(with some good wine of course)



& a few of these:

Saturday

I woke up super tired and super late so I made a HUUUUUUGE pot of oatmeal to go… I didn’t realize how much it was until my mom was like “whoaaaa, you’re gonna EAT ALL THAT????” For the record, I did. 

1/2c Oats
1 Medium Banana
1 package of Blackberries
1/2c Pumpkin
1/4c Wheatberries
1 tbs Flaxseed
Cinnamon
Mexican Vanilla
A good 3-4 BIGGGGG HUUUUGE BLOBS of Soyogurt!!!

Delicious chunks of Banana and Blackberries oozed deliciously with my yogurt.

Buddha’s Hand

I needed one, so I got one :]

Dinner was inspired by this week’s BSI :]

Miss Sweet Potato Head!!!


Veggie Sweet Potato “Lasagna”, 5-Spice Tofu w/ Onions & Hericots Verts & Steamed Brussel Sprouts.

Look at my awesome HUUUUGE bag of spinach
 

& some beautiful fresh veggies…
 

Anyways… my mom was surprised I could make a more “chinese dish” pshhh
 

My 1st piece (I had two) and my wine
 

Simple, quick and easy.

I ended the night watching Deception eating half a pomelo

Drinking some more good wine…

& some FAT worms!!
 

(& some unpictured Apple O’s and Gummy Tummies…) 

OK! After tonite I’m back to NO CANDY again!!! Too much *sugar*

Health Update & then some…

Today was THE day. Yes, THE day that I went to the Hematologist. I got tons of vials of blood taken, weight (eep! I had JUST eaten SOOO much food and drank so much @_@ argh! I hate getting my weight taken IN clothes AFTER eating/drinking… blah), blood pressure, temp, the works…

Doctor: So you’re a little bit anemic…
Me: Yes…
Doctor: Do you eat well?… Do you bleed?…

[ the usual talk and she glances at the test results from my blood … she did ask me if I had rectal bleeding and I giggled cuz I’m 3.]

*glances at test results*
Doctor: Well you’re SEVERELY anemic. You have pretty much NO iron in your body, you could need a blood transfer if it gets worse… you have a less blood count today than you did two weeks ago… you should eat red meat.
Me: …
Mom: *freaks out*

Ok, that’s not the REAL convo word for word but I’m still woozy from getting my blood taken out.

Jim: poor little tiffie being vampired :(
Me: it’s SO dumb, i need blood but they keep TAKING it

But that pretty much sums it up for ya’ll. There’s also a chance it could be Thalassemia Minor (there’s a good chance cuz I’m Asian!) I’m starting my Iron IV sessions tomorrow (which will be two hours long) and the ones following (up to 4-6, depending) will be about an hour.

GREAT. Me + Hospital are gonna be great buddies.

My doctor kept asking about my eats and if I ate red meat or any meat at all. I told her I was more vegan/vegetarian with maybe some seafood and occasional chicken… It’s strange, while I eat it, I no longer ever crave it so I mainly eat vegan/vegetarian. I’ll still eat meat I just don’t go out of my way to cook it or get any of it unless I’m sharing with other people. I’m a big seafood lover tho. Shrimp, Clams, Fish, Squid, Crabs, Lobster :] But even those I rarely eat anymore… @_@

*sips tea*

Breakfast/Lunch was a giant bowl and a half of barley w/ 綠豆 (green beans) & dried and rehydrated longans (I refer to them as two different names… 龍眼 and Taiwanese people generally refer to them as 桂圓)

& of course my vitamins & gummy vites!!!!!

I came home with a list of things and their iron quantities… chocolate & dried peaches were on the list of things with pretty good amounts of iron *snicker* so I had a chocolate covered orange slice and dried peach!!!

I’m getting ready for dinner right now… I’m planning some Orange Cumin Shrimp w/ Tomatillas… Leeks & Chanterelles and some Spaghetti Squash and Roasted Delicatas!!! Everything I’m making seems so yummie but I’m daydreaming about a nice big bowl of BANANA OATS w/ BLUEBERRIES… I think my mom might yell at me tho since it’s not really overflowing with iron @_@ BUT it’s what I CRAVE :[

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edit @ 1143pm

Dinner:

Preparing to cook!!!

Cooking with tomatillos for the first time!!!


They’re like tart tomatoes.

The shrimps before I tossed it all together with the wilting fresh basil, and tomatillo/hot pepper/spinach/grilled scallions mixture

(I had marinated the shrimps for about an hour with fresh orange zest & juice, garlic, pepper, wine, paprika & cumin!!!.. I think a few other spices too but I don’t remember hahaha)

Spaghetti Squash

Spicy Orange Cumin Grilled Shrimp w/ Tomatillos, Scallions, Basil & Spinach + Roasted Delicatas

Leeks w/ Garlicky Brown Butter Chanterelle Mushrooms

I didn’t make this, it’s just sliced beef my mom brought home from her monthly lunch party with her gfs.

I REALLY REALLY craved an amazing SWEET bowl of oats sooooo…

The most amazing bowl of oats I’ve ever had…
BLUEBERRY BANANA OATMEAL


Banana, Blueberries, Flaxseed, Wheatberries, Cinnamon & Mexican Vanilla


Plopped with a few GIANT BLOBS of Soyogurt :]

Wildwood Organic Plain Soyogurt

It was THICK and CREAMY and DELICIOUS!!!!
& very Greek Yogurt-ish but with a taste of soy!!!


& two marrocs from my lovely Coco!!!! <3 SOOOO HARD to not eat EVERYTHING!!

A snack while I watch Pan’s Labyrinth for like the billionth time (SUCH a good, but really really sad movie) Two more chocolate covered oranges, and two more chocolate covered dried peaches!!!!


I know I know I said no candy but I really really needed a few gummies tonite. I’m having a *really* bad nite tonite :[

Nite!!! I have a few things to catch up on work since I’ll be having my first Iron IV session tomorrow afternoon!

Meetings & Rain = :[ Carbo Loading = :]

I’m behind in posting and replying to comments… forgive me.. today was a hectic day again… Meetings from 830-2 and then an eye doctor appointment (which I ended up changing it to December since I’m swamped with work now) but since I’ve been w@hing so much I need to get out of the house so I’m at Starbucks right now. I managed to slurp down a bowl of barley, jujubes & adzuki during my 1pm meeting (I added extra water to it before I warmed it up so it would be nice and soupy!!!)


My chubby leg haha… my two laptops and me on a conference call…. >_<;


Venti Americano!!!


I need something in my belly so I’m eating a cup of GoLean (I always pre-bag a few baggies so I can grab them on my way out the door in a hurry!!!) I’m planning on hitting up Whole Foods after I finish up work at Starbucks to get a nice salad… it’s all cuz of Kath and her yummie salad lunch today ;]

Last nite I had a little over a glass of red wine….


15 Blackberries… :] & 1/2 of my Dark Chocolate bar :] I like my other brand better, this one has more sugar in it so it didn’t taste as dark even tho the other one is 71% and this one’s 85%. I’m weird, I like bitter baking dark chocolate that has like NO sugar in it.


A bag of Gummy Tummies Penguins (i couldn’t stop at a few… my daddy loved them too!!!)

& then a handful of these Fruit Jellies!!!


(Sammie, all your fault!!! I LOOOOOOOOOVE them, haha so bad yet soo goooood!!!)

And unpictures, I ended up finishing off my Bee’s Knees PB & about a handful of raw Walnuts. I couldn’t sleep again and ended up going to bed ridiculously late. I was exhausted but I got to FINALLY catch up with *someone* on the phone … I was gonna do some work but decided that I needed a break. So cookbooks and phone conversations (and nuts!!!) kept me company thru-out the night. My sweet tooth has been OUT of control lately. I’m not sure why and I’m kinda depressed that I’ve packed a few (I guess they’re “needed”) pounds. But I’ve packed them nonetheless. Seems to be a problem fellow bloggettes have been mentioning lately. I’ve been a lot more lax with my candy intake >_<; and not exercising as much… winter padding?!… stress?!…

I’m really excited for my WF salad tonite, it’s been awhile :] I’m going to one that I don’t usually go to for salads so I hope they have awesome options!!! I also need to pick up some baby spinach, carrots, garbanzo beans (TJ’s didn’t have no-salt ones… boo) & pb&co Mighty Maple!!!

I’ve been reading up on what to eat for my Anemia thanks to FIona… while i know I should be eating meats and stuff like that.. I’ve been eating a lot more… Vegan… with seafood… I didn’t mean to, it just happened… I still eat it all tho. (Fatty Pork Love!!! haha) ANYHOO…

I was surprised that spinach was a iron-absorption inhibitor!!!! So you have to eat it with things that’ll enhance the iron absorption :O Insane huh? OK so I love all the inhibitors… whole grains, soy, those veggies they list… red wine, coffee, tea :[ The best things for me are like… LIVER & clams, mussels, oysters… ehhh…