Can you be an optimistic sad person?

I have always been the ‘glass half full’ type of girl. My whole life, after being bullied, abused, ridiculed, belittled, talked down upon, faced racism, sexism, been hated for just being me, etc… I always tell myself every morning, with a smile on my face, today is a new day.

OK, fine, I’m lying, I don’t always wake up with a smile on my face, or think that this new day will be any better… but I DO keep trying to tell myself that. Isn’t that a thing? Think positive, positive things will happen? BTW, a lie, but also I do believe think negative and negative things will happen.

I’m having an……………… OK streak.

I’d say bad but it’s not all that bad, it’s been awful but I have my good moments. With all the bad moments in life, I love to only remember the best, greatest moments. The best moments are the ones that made me glow and smile from within…. Nothing money or success or fame can buy. They’re the moments, usually the small ones that make me so happy to have lived my life as I have.

Never live in your negative past memories and thoughts, or you will be miserable your whole life. I’ve had so many bad things happen to me and have met bad people, but I only want to remember the good. You might think I’m being naive or stupid, or avoiding the bad… Not avoiding the bad… the bad happened, and I will avoid it ever happening again. I just don’t need to drown in my own sorrows, self-pity, woe, whatever it is.

Not worth it. I’d rather eat something decadent and worry about my waistline [haha]

This past year has been so rough for me, emotionally…physically, and the physical also influenced the emotional. Brave face, brave mind, brave heart. I’ll survive. Life goes on…

True Happiness comes from Simplicity

Today I was reminded of living my life with “Simplicity”.  I have changed a lot the past few weeks, the past few months and even the past few years.  I used to party and live my life to excess.  I indulged way too much in so many ways, now looking back, I don’t get why… but I have lived through it and it’s apart of my life.  I will never have to live my life saying “what if” or regret not doing anything.

But it’s all been done and all behind me.  My future is in front of me, looking forward, simplicity does make me happier.  There was a point where I was eating out at luxurious restaurants every night of the week and going to the hottest night spots as well.  I lived and traveled in gorgeous crazy amazing places.  But I have learned to be humble (and save my money and others – haha).

My life is now devoted to my family, God, my friends, my spirituality (and my newly found gifts), work and most importantly – constantly improving and learning to love myself.  Oh wait, I forgot, and my little Didi (she makes a special appearance in this post later now hehe).

And yet, Archangel Ariel, reminds me by saying “Your materiel needs are provided as you follow your intuition and manifest your dreams into reality.” is that the there are still the basics that we need in life and as long as I follow my dreams and my goals in life, they will come to me.

Prosperity.  I have another project in the works.  Right now I have my design work, my card/crystal pendulum reading/healing and now…. *surprise* being a business partner with one of my best girl friends.  She just came to me with this offer today so I don’t want to say too much just yet (I also don’t know too much yet)

That’s the thing.  The less you go “I want I want I want” the more “You get you get you get”

A famous author was in an interview once and he was asked what he wanted in his next life… and he said “I want to be poor, ugly, sad, nothing, etc….”  The host was confused and questioned why he said that.  He replied, “Because the more you keep saying how much you want something, you tend not to get it.”

BUT I’m also not saying to NOT have goals.  You NEED goals! You just don’t have to feel sorry for yourself or think that you “deserve” the things you get.  You need to earn what you get for it to be true.  The people in the world who just take and take and get stuff because they feel entitled and without the sweat and work behind it, I feel sorry for them and they will never be happy.

Hard work = Success = Gratification and Happiness

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Today I watched the movie, finally, “Unbroken” – it teared me up, my hurt ached, but it made me more motivated than ever.  People who don’t know this true story of USA Olympian, who had sort of a “problem child” sort of childhood until he found his calling, running… the athlete Louis “Louie” Zamperini.

He then survived in a raft for 47 days after his bomber crash landed in the ocean during World War II.  When finally “rescued” he was sent to a series of Japanese prisoner of war camps.  He was tortured, belittled, etc…. but he never gave up hope and he kept on going.  There was a point in the movie where he wanted to kill the commanding officer of the camp.  A fellow prisoner said not to, and that the true revenge would be to survive this.

And he did.  And it was amazing, he and the other prisoners ended up being saved after the war ended and was brought back to America where he married, had kids, and even went back to Japan to forgive his captures. All but the commanding officer would meet him.  He knew that forgiveness was better than revenge.  He even went back to Japan to run in the Olympics when he was 80, carrying the torch.

He recently just passed in 2014.  He is truly an inspiration.  Never give up, no matter how hard you have it, if you believe, it will be better.  And don’t live with hate, it won’t make the world a better place and you will just be living your life with misery.

And with that said….

How can you not smile with this cute face around.  Stay positive, focused, love yourself, love others and all will be well!  It’s the simple things in life….

XOXO

BTW, I haven’t listened to this song in the longest time and it popped up on my iTunes the other day.

So one more last bit of advice… especially to the ones going thru hard relationships and break-ups right now.  You don’t need to be in a relationship.  You need to just love yourself and know that the ones who love you, love you and accept you for who you are.  Don’t let a significant other treat you wrong or try to change you.  Don’t give in to the negativity when you know deep down it’s wrong for you.  No one deserves that.

Love you all!!!

Monday, July 11 2016: Clairaudience

Today Archangel Zadkiel has told me to “Notice the loving guidance you hear inside you mind, or from other people.”

I’m sorry to people I’ve hurt and bless everyone, those who hate me and love me. I blame myself for all the stress I have caused on anyone and myself.  I am who I am today because of all of you.  Lessons have been learned.  Tears and smiles.  Butterflies in the stomach and heartbreaks.  First kisses and forever goodbyes. Bless everyone.

This trip and these “accidental” classes have not only brought me peace at heart, but I’ve released all the hurt and sadness and despair from my past.  All the anger and hate.  I’ve also learned a new gift.  One to heal, one to answer questions and to help and teach others.  My teacher, aka master, has also told me that I am already, just a month in, ready to go out on my own and help others.  I can speak to the spirits and the angels and I have seen them, God, my past and have seen the future.  I am no longer who I was a month and a half ago. [I say “accidental” because I was only supposed to see my teacher once, but she said she saw my gift and offered me to be an apprentice, a student, now she is ready to teach me how to teach others.]

Btw, I got a new trim, and color to my hair today, yay.. thinking of going lighter ombré… what do you guys think?

Today I asked my angel cards for help and wisdom to guide me today and of course, Michael and Gabriel came up, per usual. They are the best “guardian angels” ever. [BTW. have you guys seen the show Angel from Hell with Sarah Lynch? Most hilarious new show ever! I love her humor! She was amazing on Glee.  I hate that they’re canceling it due to a religious thing, relax guys.  It’s a show.]

That goes on to my next thing.  People need to relax, let loose.  Not get tangled up in a web that just causes more chaos and negativity.  You must think positive.  It’s like my card told me today.  Listen to myself,  my heart, and to those I love and who surround me and send tons of positivity my way.

I am a very lucky girl.  I have a ton of very loving family and friends, and even fans… you guys, yes all of you reading, or not, you guys have supported me, loved me, believed in me for so long – and I plan to always live up to it.  I am so appreciative, actually for everyone who has passed in my life, either who have stayed or left, because I am who I am now because of this. Fate. Karma.

Stay positive.  Bless everyone around you whether they treat you well or not.  And remember to always listen to your heart.  Oh and eat your heart out.

Dinner tonight at Din Tai Fun was uhhh 5+ steamers of xiao long baos [including sweet ones], tons of veggies, pork chops, chicken soup, bamboo, wine chicken, spicy cucumbers, etc etc etc…. there was a ton of food, and I still have a ton next to me that I ordered for a late night snack ;] Enjoy life.  You only live.. once, well, once that you remember [unless under hypnosis] – And yes, I saw a few past lives under hypnosis.

Good night ya’ll ;] LOVE YOU!  I’ll be in the States for a bit soon….. and I’ll also be back in Taiwan for awhile again, soon.

XOXO

 

So hey, let’s be friends! ….

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I’m dying to see how this one ends….

The one thing that my friends have always told me, that despite all the heartaches and heartbreaks I’ve been through I have almost gotten stronger, stood up, and always stayed optimistic.  My cup is always half full and I always stay positive.

Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
. . .
Love’s a game, wanna play?

I’ve got a blank space baby, and I’ll write your name. 

So let’s Marvin Gaye and get it on……xoxo

Happy Vday: Testing Love

Recently I’ve been tested on the test of love.

It was hard.

There were tears.

There was heartbreak.

There was also hurt that I’ve never felt before.

And yet, we rose above it.  And after telling each other to give each other a few days, it took less than that to know that we wanted, needed, had to be together.

We talked. We made up. We promised to communicate more and fix and that’s how life and all sorts of relationships work.  Not just in love.

Happy Valentines Day from Taiwan…. instead of the usual…. we stayed in bed til dinner time and then we had super spicy, potent, Indian food… walked around in the cold rain…. went to a “speakeasy” and went home…. all while wearing “he & she” shirts I bought last night at Shilin Market.

We definitely love each other….

True love…. right?!

Ok, he’s asleep… and all I wanna do is just cuddle him instead of this bottle of wine cuz I’m so wide awake AF…. ARGH LOL….

 

byebye past, hello future

This is the beginning of a whole new life for me.  A new chapter with one of the best people I know in my life.  I’m not running away from my past but I have moved on, beyond and I’m only looking forward, hand in hand with my love.

A few things I’m considering, now that this has gone from health blog, foodie blog, for awhile it got all personal and “shtuff” and now into a lifestyle blog.  Should I get rid of all my old posts?  Or just leave them on to see how I’ve grown?  Tons of old posts are still being read, even commented on, so I feel like I’m taking away from hiding them….

But this is a new start for me.

After over 24 hours in airports, but mostly an airplane… I am on the other side of the world, for who knows how long.  On the plane I watched Tiny Times (finally!!!), Room and Trainwreck.  Which strangely, I connected to all three.

Tiny Times.  The Asian, younger version of Sex and the City.  College students who great up together and their stories.  Each girl different from the other (all gorgeous of course and all in different situations in their lives – of course – but even the most glamorous has difficulties.)  Who hasn’t gone through a time admiring successful beautiful people.  The super athletic one.  The super rich one.  The gorgeous one.  The artistic one.  The smartest one.  Or wanted “Mr. Perfect” etc. etc.  This movie reminds us that we are still, in fact, all the same.  All the same insecurities, pains, emotions, feelings – and most of us, truly do in fact have a soul.

Room.  A girl was raped and abducted for over 5 years and had a child and was living in one room for that long.  Her son, his whole life, was based on a tv, books “surprise Sundays” and the room.  It was interesting how the girl got frustrated at her own son being scared of the world she always knew of and dreamed of going back into – after they got saved.  It also reminded me of how materialistic the world has become, how reliant we are with technology and not appreciating the beauty we have all around us, waiting to happen, things that have happened.  Just even a window to look outside.

Trainwreck.  I’ll just let the name speak for itself.  Thankfully I was never even close to how awful of a place she was in.  But let’s just got back to Tiny Times’ conclusion.  Everyone has gone through shit.

And then I think of where I am now.

I am happy.

I AM HAPPY.

Of course, nothing will ever be perfect… but I am HAPPY.

So yup. First 24 hours has been a lot of sleep (we both passed out around 9ish last night)  And it’s currently 6 in the morning.  More later on.  Feel free to check out my tweets and instagram for quicker updates.

xoxo, Tiffie

I open my eyes are there you are…

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I’m pretty sure I am the luckiest girl in the world.  By fate, chance, karma,緣分, however you wanna call it, I’m sure blessed to have you in my life.  You always makes me smile, laugh, giggle and unconditionally happy.  I love falling asleep next to you and waking up next to you.  In a few days we will be embarking on a new exciting journey, together.  One of the biggest choices I’ve made in my life , seriously, the biggest deal that I have ever made and I’m so glad we’re doing it hand in hand.  With you next to me, we will get through anything and everything.  You are positive, an inspiration, protective of me, supportive, loving and simply the love of my life! …and it all started with an Apple.

I promise to be all yours if you are all mine.

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See you in 3+ hours baby <3 LOVE YOU

Where have you been all of my life?

taylorswift-1989polaroid-13This past week has been absolutely amazing.  All because of this guy.

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Yup. Who would’ve thought that meeting a guy on a plane, accepting an apple towards the end of a flight [the airplane food was pretty sad…] and spending almost a whole month with him would lead me to so much happiness.

It’s been over a month and while things have escalated quickly, it just feels so natural and right.  From wandering the streets of Taiwan together, going to Denver, driving to Montana to have Thanksgiving with his family and friends and now him living with me in Boston – It’s been just getting better and stronger with each passing minute.

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Who thought a random meeting, could turn into a fling, into a friendship and then something even better.  He is the most amazing thing that has happened to me and I am so very blessed to have him come into my life.  We can be nerdy, gaming, foodie dorks together, perverted and mean to each other as well [haha]…

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It’s been such a good ride so far…. I can’t wait for more…. XOXO

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Bliss….

I’ve just been back from the most amazing and delicious trip from St. Lucia – WHICH I shall block about. Not only did we eat street food, cart food, resort/beach food, nightmarket food, fancy food…. we even went grocery shopping…. this has been a delicious adventure.  We saw waterfalls, botanical gardens, climbed the Gros Piton and went horseback riding in the ocean.  I am truly blessed… and this was a beautiful New Years.  From the end to the beginning to now….. blog of highlights soon.. but this might be my favorite… our last day in St. Lucia…on a beach, in the ocean, riding horses…. I am super blessed.