Back to you….

I just don’t get it… why are people just liars and cheaters and fakes.  I am so sick of it.  People are so freaking selfish and I can’t stand it.  And I don’t know why I always forgive them and go back to them……………..  maybe I’m just that much broken.

Why do people say “sorry” when they don’t even mean it?  And why do people still fall for it?  It’s a never ending circle, it’s saddening, heartbreaking and yet inevitable and it just happens over and over again.  When will the cycle end?  For the lucky ones, it doesn’t happen, or it happens once or twice.  But for people like me, I shouldn’t have picked up that penny the wrong side up, it’s the story of my life.

At times, I just don’t know how to feel anymore.  Numb, I’ve said before, just numb.

I accept all of my problems and disorders and “crazy” that I have… and I feel like everyone in my life does too… well mostly… the true ones.  The ones who love me and accept me for who I am.

“I love it, I hate it…”  Guess I’m just a masochistic. LOL.

Like I’ve said before, I’ve got a Jet Black Heart.

[Bebe Rexha:]
I know you say you know me, know me well
But these days I don’t even know myself, no
I always thought I’d be with someone else
I thought I would own the way I felt, yeah

I call you but you never even answer
I tell myself I’m done with wicked games
But then I get so numb with all the laughter
That I forget about the pain

Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We’re on the ground, we’re screaming
I don’t know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it
But I keep on coming back to you

[Louis Tomlinson:]
I know my friends they give me bad advice
Like move on, get you out my mind
But don’t you think I haven’t even tried
You got me cornered and my hands are tied

[Louis Tomlinson & Bebe Rexha:]
You got me so addicted to the drama
I tell myself I’m done with wicked games
But then I get so numb with all the laughter
That I forget about the pain

[Louis Tomlinson:]
Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We’re on the ground, we’re screaming
I don’t know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it
But I keep on coming back to you (back to you)
Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you (back to you)
Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you

And I guess you’ll never know
All the bullshit that you put me through
And I guess you’ll never know, no

[Bebe Rexha & Louis Tomlinson:]
Yeah, so you can cut me up and kiss me harder
You can be the pill to ease the pain
‘Cause I know I’m addicted to your drama
Baby, here we go again

Whoah, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We’re on the ground, we’re screaming
I don’t know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it, and I can’t take it
But I keep on coming back to you (back to you)
Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you (back to you)
Oh, no, no, I just keep on coming back to you
Back to you
I just keep on coming back to you

Moving on….

The past week has really been a true wake up call, I’ve seen true colors of certain people, become closer to some and X’d off a lot; and I am officially moved on and really really happy the way my life is going. Of course a great baseball game, where we won, GO RED SOX, with a super fun, cute friend helped a lot too – SECOND ROW!!! Behind the dugout!!! :] Being with friends and family has really centered me and made me turn back into the happy person that I was.  I will no longer let anyone affect who I am.

Sincerely yours,
Tiffie.

Ps. Check out our great view and the amazing BBQ we had after!!!!!!! OMG YUM

What else is there to Canadia other than Ice Hockey and Mooses..

POUTINE!!!!

The first time I had it was in 2012 in Windsor, Canaaaaadia… literally 5 minutes away from where I was staying in Detroit. At a little place called Frenchy’s Poutinery.  I’ve heard about this creation but never had it.  And when I was living in Seattle and going to Vancouver all the time, I was too little to even care about food.

Look at me, all dressed up and excited to go.

I think we ordered a few meats on here.  It was messy, gooey and over-flowing.  When I think of gravy, I think of Thanksgiving gravy… thick, dense and heavy…. but poutine gravy is more like a thicker jus.  The fries got soggy after a bit since it got so covered with stuff…..

So, now comes the part of the review.  I recently went to Ontario/Niagra Falls with family and was told by C that I had to hit up Smoke’s Poutinerie. HAD TO.  I was so sick that morning from being so underdressed and cold and smoke covered at the casino the night before… but I HAD TO GO TO CANADA FOR POUTINE!

I ended up getting an original one.  Simple.  Crispy fries.  Chunks of cheese curds and that light thin gravy I talked about earlier.  It was like 4pm and my first meal of the day – the fam weren’t too into it but I loved it.  I liked that the fries stayed crispy :] YUM!

And of course I left my mark! @misstiffie

So as soon as L saw me post pictures of poutine, he got poutine-envy; So for July 4th, I made a mini poutine bar for the party he threw.  I make a mean double fried fries :]  And in the back I had a mushroom gravy which I thinned down with chicken stock – and I added some white pepper for more of a bite.

My 40 (but not a Colt) – Bigger than K and I’s head

My first bowl.  My skinny rosemary fries, cheese curds (ranch flavored but I couldn’t taste it), my gravy, pulled pork and topped with crumbled chunks of crispy bacon!  I even microwaved it a bit so the curds would get super gooey!!!

I also made some fresh watermelon margaritas for everyone.

Ps. Don’t let a drunk person piggyback you while you’re drunk in a crowded area.

Pps. if that lady who wanted to hit me ever reads this. You still suck.

So yay for Canada for actually having a few cool things, even though it’s still really easy to “blame Canada” and make fun of Canada eh… HAH :]

Best day ever…… Red Sox win and giant Lobsters

i love my fam……. Red Sox 5-4 against Houston Atsros….. and then legal seafoods

Happy times <3

Getting back into the groove of things….

Now that I have started blogging again and will always be blogging for Modern Dauphine….  I’m kinda really liking it.  I’ve even gotten back to writing my book again (which has been on  hiatus for like 2 months) …

Life has been interesting. Ups, downs, misunderstandings and mended friendships…. You never really truly to enjoy your day to day life until you get older, huh? Each day passes with a blink of an eye.  I really need to reach further, set even higher limits and more goals.  And then check them off my Must-Do Checklist.

Summer is almost upon us, June 20, and I’m psyched! I always loved summer – being a summer baby and all.  The obvious: Cape Code trips, beaching… short weekend trips somewhere relaxing and fun, wearing as little clothing as possible (duh!) And all those refreshing, light, yummy foods and cocktails.

Beach beach beach! I need a tan!  I’m practically see-thru…. and then some.

This weekend is my babe Kim‘s Birthday so I booked a hotel and I’m taking her to Chippendales. I think they call it “Men in Motion‘ now… haha with a special twist. I got us VIP seats in the front so we don’t have to stand and……. well I promise to take pictures ;]  We’re getting tattoos, gonna go shopping, go eat at Wahlburgers.

We always have an amazing time.  Plus I get to help pick out clothes for her, do her makeup and hair ;]  Plus when you go out with me, and I plan it, we go ALL. OUT. Got it?

Soon after my Uncle, Aunt and one of my favorite Cousins (shh) is coming for I think 3 weeks or so.  Niagara Falls and Red Sox games are a MUST. (which reminds me I have to buy tickets… it’ll just be me and the boys… haha my mom and aunt are so not into it) – I’ll definitely be taking him to some sort of July 4th celebration/party and maybe even hit up the beach with a group of people.

And then August.  I’m make sure that all my birthdays are memorable and I promise this year won’t be an exception.  INCLUDING 5 Seconds of Summer will be playing in Boston in August. UH psyched.  I just don’t know what to do yet for my birthday….. got any ideas?

It’s already been a crazy half a year (can you believe how fast that went?  Heartbreaks, crushes, enemies… yikes) – And yes there is someone I like – even though I decided to try not to talk about my love life on this blog anymore. So *crossing my fingers*

So, now let’s go dancing….. forget about the past, look forward to the future but treasure every breath and existence of the moment ♥

ps. Promise more food posts will be made as well…

xo

Is it really almost May?

I’ve written posts but none have been published. The past month and a half…. why? A lot has been happening and I’ve been going through a lot of changes (cue: jokes) – And I’m still in the process of going through changes. In fact before the end of summer I’ll have my own apartment, a new job, a ton of new side projects and hopefully my filming/hosting for Flushing Foodie Season 1 will be done.  I can’t wait to travel more and go to more events and concerts (woot!) – I can’t wait to go to Taiwan and *surprise* FINALLY Hong Kong at the end of the year and I just feel like I’ve been re-born the past few weeks.

There is so much craziness going on in thee world, most recently the earthquake in Nepal and this whole Baltimore situation it feels silly to be blogging about food I eat and cook, life being single and pics of my dogs – but I do have to admit I’m basically cooking almost 6 out of the days of the week now – which has definitely been a huge stress relief.  I promise to post more, and to do some food posts again (since people have been asking) – and I’m totally backlogged and have so much to publish, sooooo…. we’ll see :D  BTW, I will be helping out with charity work again at Save A Dog now that the weather is getting better and will be holding a donation stand for Nepal this weekend in my town – if interested in helping out :]

But aside from that I’m excited to see my cousin when he visits me in June, baseball games, beaches, the ocean, bikinis, tans and just the summer sun <3

Love,
Tiffie

Poached Cod with Tomato and Saffron and Cauliflower sidedish

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted recipes or food/restaurant things… or anything really at all.. I’ve been having too fabulous of a time having fun, cooking ALL the time with L<3 and having adventures and traveling.  I’ll try to add some posts of some special eats I’ve made, eaten and done recently…. including Taiwan posts!  I’m back!!!!

Ingredients:
SERVINGS: 2
2 tablespoons olive oil
4 cloves garlic thinly sliced
1 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes (or to taste)
1 14.5-oz. can whole peeled tomatoes, drained
¼ cup dry white wine
1/4 cup rice wine
1 cup boiling water
2 bay leaves
pinch of saffron threads
1 fresh rosemary stick
paprika (to taste)
sea salt and white pepper, freshly ground black pepper (to taste)
2 5-oz. skinless cod fillets


Over low-medium heat, add the oil, garlic and hot chili flakes and without adding color to the garlic, just cook until it smells absolutely delicious – about 3-5 minutes.


Afterwards, add in the canned whole unpeeled tomatoes, crushing it while you dump them in.  Don’t add the juice, and make sure not to get splashed by the hot oil.. I  have battle scars.  Then, add the wine, bay leaves and cook it to a boil on high and then turn it back down to medium.  Taste taste taste. Salt and Black/White Pepper to taste.


I took my two fillets and dusted each side with Black Pepper, Paprika.   After placing it in the pan, after a few minutes, I flipped them and added whole rosemary and the rice wine into the pan.  This was basically all to taste.  I also added a little more paprika to the sauce.  Cook until the fish it tender but starting to flake.

Side Dish:


Roasted Cauliflower & Baby Carrots.  I just sprinkled it with fig blamasic vinagrette (or a ny flavor you love), EVOO, Salt and Pepper, Orange Zest and chopped Rosemary… oh and some of my homemade Duck Fat, Shallots and a few finely minced garlic!  Just cook on 450 til your liking.


Put the fish in a shallow bowl, and then pour the sauce over the fish.  Garnish with a bit of rosemary for some green.  Pour some of the wine you cooked with (cuz you never cook with wine you won’t drink) and enjoy!

Btw, i swear the Kimchi recipe is currently in thr works. :] Will be up tonight or tomorrow!

My Life, now.

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything significant and while me and L have been cooking TONS of crazy delicious stuff… (including the kimchi recipe, yes, I still need to post) life has just been one big rollercoaster ride.  So far we’ve been doing Spookyworld, making boozey apple cider, Zombie corn mazes, apple picking, TONS of apple pies and turnovers…. even potato gun fighting.  Pet Parades, Costume contests…. Salem this weekend and Dim Sum for our hangover already planned ahhahaha…

And while I’m slowly still fighting the end of my cold (I keep saying it’s Ebola) my life is finally where I want it.  I am at peace.  I have amazing wonderful friends and family in my life.  Work is good. Volunteering at the Dog Rescue shelter has changed my life.  I’m just so glad that I can say, life is perfect.

Food post tonight! Promise!

XO

Just a few reasons why my mom is the best – Happy Birthday Mommy

I love you Mommy, Happy Birthday

Happy Mothers Day 2014 at Cottage Wellesley

I’m behind on my Mother’s Day Post….. I took my mama to The Cottage in Wellesley for the special day…

We got there in time for the reservation but still had to wait awhile for our table… which was kind of disappointing – and annoying.

Me and my beautiful mommy…

I got her flowers delivered to the restaurant… which she loved because she loves purple roses and we both took a million pictures… this is one of my favorites… she will always be the most beautiful woman I know in my life.

We got a half bottle of champagne to celebrate the day.

Cheers to you mommy for being the most amazing woman in my life.

We said no to bread but they gave it to us anyway and it was SO GOOD.  Warm creamy butter and hot delicious fluffy bread. YAY – so bad for us since we’re both carb-o-holics.  It was kind of foccacia-y….

For appetizers we got  a grilled vegetable salad and fried eggplant fries.

DUDE.

FRIED. EGGPLANT. FRIES.

They came with a sauce that kind of tasted like a tartar sauce mixed with a thousand island dressing…. but just on it’s own it was…. light, fluffy, crisp outside and soooo soft and yummy inside – NOT OILY AT ALL.

They actually split our salad for us.  It came with avocado… like a split whole avocado between the two of us… grilled red peppers… asparagus… corn… squash… different kinds of greens… it was just beautiful… you didn’t even need the dressing to make it delicious.

This was my duck duo – which was duck leg confit and duck breast. BEAUTIFUL.  Pickled Cabbage and mandarin slices.

Mama got the sweet potato crusted cod with Potatoes and corn…. also completely amazing.

 

When we got home I made us Watermelon Margaritas with just Fresh Watermelon and Patron in my vitamix. YAYYYYYY

 I love you Mommy